Me – not fun anymore

Seeing myself in the pas few weeks, I hate myself. Cant do anything right no more. Complaining bout lots of things, frustrating with the condition I have to deal with every single day. I know that I love what I do more than anything in the world. I have put everything I have in risk for this. My life, my friends, and even my love. Not sure whether I can find it anymore. I am difficult, I know. No need to have an expert to tell me that. Need the vibe for next year. The same tune.